Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Random Rantings

I know my first post was pretty serious for the most part, but really I am a funny person with a silly sense of humor.  As I sit here munching on my second LARGE trowel of Trader Joe's tortilla chips I am reminded why I don't eat them in the first place, because once I pop I just can't stop - LOL. Anywho it
doesn't help that I had a glass of vino and some PMS medicine.  Not a good combination, I know.  The girls are at vacation bible school and I have some free time on hands.  Free time for me happens so infrequently I get a little lost when I actually do get some, smiles. 

So the young neighborhood child who normally cuts my grass came around today after about 4 weeks. When I asked him where he had been, his response was "around" . Around, huh? My grass is headed toward jungle status and all you can give me is "around".   I swear these children today have no drive about them, only a sense of entitlement!  In any case he will soon be replaced because I will be purchasing a lawn mower and weed trimmer and taking care of my grass from here on out.  Considering I have never cut grass a day in my life, we can all expect some funny sights.  I will have to post pictures for you guys.  I guess this all goes with the new found freedom I mentioned in my first post. Really, though freedom would be paying a professional lawn service to take care of my lawn. Well I am off to find the best price for a lawn mower and weed trimmer. Wish me luck!

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

Flying Solo

Who am I? Let's see I am a 40 yr old african american female and YES 40 is the new 30. I say thisbecause I am more alive, aware and freer than I have ever been before. Life truly does not begin until you have some time and experience under your belt. I am currently in the middle of a divorce, learning how to make my own way in this world and determined not to let this divorce define my life. While the past year has been a rollercoaster of emotions and I have gone from being full of anger and venom to indescribably sad to just ready for the madness to end, I am a better person for it. At times I have questioned whether it would have been easier to just deal with a non-working, dream world living womanizer than to go thru the headache and hassles of divorce, the emotions you experience and the pain it causes the children, but reality is always around the corner to confirm I am exactly where I should be at this time in my life.

In the midst of this rollercoaster of emotions, I have been single-handedly raising two very active, high-maintenance little girls, ages 4 and 8. Besides the fact that girls are a handful by nature, these two beauties also have food allergies. Between them they share the following food allergies: eggs, peanuts, chicken, dairy, wheat and shellfish. I know you must be wondering, "what CAN these chicks eat?" Because that was my first question too when the allergist gave me the news. I also wanted to know how in the world could a black kid be allergic to chicken???? I mean, really....chicken?? As you can see our dining resources are pretty limited but I have become somewhat creative albeit frugal when it comes to feeding my children high quality food. And in addition to all this, I work very hard to provide my girls with a quality education and right now this means I send them to a private christian school. I don't knock anyone who doesn't send their children to private school, these are just choices I have made for my kids at this time in their life.

I will rise above and conquer the fears that have held me back for years from becoming the woman God designed me to be. I am empowered to step out on faith and take risks in order to soar and provide my children with the life they deserve.